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chains and bands

today Mistress required me to put a rubber band tight around my puny worthless dick.   i did so and wore it that way for about 10 minutes.   also, a long time ago i presented Mistress with a small chain and padlock that locks around my balls and puny worthless dick.   i lock the chain around my balls and puny worthless dick whenever She orders me to do so.   i am wearing it now as i write this.

tampon

Mistress required me to wear a tampon in my ass all morning.  the tampon was swollen some so harder to pull out and just a little discolored.   i wish i had a real pussy to insert items and to be fucked.  i am a dirty slut for Men

orders this morning

this morning Mistress ordered me to put clothes pins on my balls and stroke thinking about serving three Masters.   i did as She ordered and think it would be very confusing keeping track of serving three Masters!   however, i am a pussy so serving three Masters is something i should crave.   i got to work this morning, put a tampon in my ass and put on panties as ordered by Mistress.   the tampon is a reminder that i am a pussy and faggot.  

pussy

i am a pussy whose sole purpose is to please Mistress and all Men.  Mistress has told me many times that all Men should be able to fuck my face whenever they wish.   Mistress has me beg for cock and cum all the time.  i am a pussy and sissy and Men should be able to have me dress however they want.  my puny worthless dick is worthless and just a reminder of what a pussy i am.

swallowing cum

Mistress wants me to swallow a Man's cum.  i know my doing so would please Her very much.  for me, swallowing cum is an act of submission and also very humiliating.  

saturday

following Mistress's orders, i went into the bathroom this afternoon and pissed into a glass.   i  stroked until hard and then pinched my nipples and took a sip of my piss for Her

wednesday

i visited Mistress, She ordered me to strip and crawl to the bedroom.   a Dom had ordered me to tie Her breasts but i failed and was unable to do so.  the rope just slipped off.  Mistress used a swatter on my ass and pinched my nipples.  

this morning's orders

per Mistress C's orders this morning.  i am wearing black panties and have written 'C' on my puny worthless dick and have a tampon inserted in my cunt.    when i got to work i was ordered to go to the bathroom and stoke, put the chain on and think about Mistress C fucking my tight cunt.  i am a whore to Mistress C

begging

i beg for Mistress C to own me and fuck my tight cunt

slut and whore

i am a slut and whore and love to sniff Men's assholes to please Mistress

a poem

roses are red
violets are blue
my dick is small
and worthless too

today

i was ordered to serve Mistress today.  She ordered me to park my car at a store and She picked me up and drove me to Her home.   i followed Her to Her bedroom and She ordered me to  strip and the undress Her.   She inspected my body and then squeezed by balls. She put Her arms around me from behind and pressed against me and rubbed my puny worthless dick.   She then permitted me to lick and suck Her breasts and i rubbed against Her getting hard.  She had me lay on he bed and She tied my feet to the corners so that my legs were spread.  She put clothes pins on my balls and nipples.  She put Her breast in my mouth and i sucked first lightly and then hard.  She used a wooden spoon on my balls, nipples and puny worthless dick.  She fucked my mouth with Her fingers and told me i was a faggot and She had me beg for cock.  She took off the pins and untied me and had me roll over and She used the spoon on my ass.  She allowed me to get up and suck her breasts again, i begged to cum but She didn't permit that.  She then had me kneel and suck and worship Her feet.  She then had me get dressed and She took me back to my car.

slut

i am a slut and whore and i look forward to seeing Mistress again.  i am Her slut and plan on rubbing my hands all over Her body and then rubbing against Her with my puny worthless dick.  Mistress has said She is going to fuck me soon.   i look forward to being used by Her

kissing

Mistress is thinking having me serve a Dom.  this is a person i have served in the past but when he went to kiss me, i turned away.   if i am ordered to serve him again, i will kiss him if he wants and not turn away.  i will accept his tongue in my mouth and kiss him.

an order

today i was required to wear a tampon in my ass.  i put it in at work with the string hanging out.  it was humiliating knowing  it was there all day.   it reinforced the fact that i am a faggot and slut.  the tampon went in much easier then it came out, i had to pull hard on the string.  i could feel it in my ass most of the day.

Mistress has ordered me to put clothes pins on my balls and stroke driving to and from work tomorrow.  She has ordered me to think about sucking cock the entire time.  i beg to have both of my holes used.   i am also ordered to wear panties all day tomorrow because i am a faggot.

Mistress also requires me to follow the orders of a Dom, i have to drink a cup of my piss while stroking but not permitted to cum

this morning

Mistress ordered me on cam this morning.   i was naked.  She had me stroke and then slap my puny worthless dick, first with my hand and then with the wooden spoon.   She told me to put clothes pins on my nipples and balls.  She then had me slap my nipples, balls and puny worthless dick with the spoon.  She ordered me to stick out my tongue and attached a clothes pin to it.  She told me to stand and smack my ass with the spoon over and over.  She said She was told by Her Master to use me hard.  She told me to get the butt plug and fuck my ass as She watched.  She then ordered me to the bathroom where i had to lick the entire toilet seat after taking the pin off my tongue.   Then more pain from the wooden spoon and then i was dismissed.

last night

how i would...

i would seduce the Dom by being on cam and slowly stripping

another pic

a nice pic for Mistress

a few pics

another pic

a gay pic

a pic

what fat looks like

a posting

Mistress,

i am Your faggot and beg to serve Men for You

i am....

Mistress,

i am Your slut and whore
i am Your slut and whore
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i am Your slut and whore
i am Your slut and whore
i am Your slut and whore
i am Your slut and whore
i am Your slut and whore
i am Your slut and whore
i am Your slut and whore
i am Your slut and whore

training

Mistress is training me to be a faggot to be used by Men.  She requires that i crave and beg for cock and cum.  She drills into my head that all Men are superior to me.   when i beg to serve all Men, i know that pleases Her.  

weekend cam

i was on cam for Mistress all weekend.   there was a lot of stroking and pain from slapping with my hand, the wooden spoon and clothes pins.  i begged for cock and cum and to serve men and follow their orders.  Mistress had me get close many times but didn't permit me to cum. i spent time in the cage stroking also.

begging

i beg to be a slut and whore to a Master.  i beg to be tortured and receive pain from a Master.  i beg to serve a Master

grateful

i adore You Mistress and i am very grateful for Your ownership of me.
i beg to serve You and please You when i am on my knee.
i am grateful You take time out of Your day to talk to me
i am grateful for all Your orders

rewawrd

Mistress sometimes requires that i put clothes pins on my balls while driving. i put 2 on this morning.  She ordered me to keep track of the number of minutes and when i reach 600 minutes my reward is to be able to buy Her a strap-on and She will fuck me.

last night

i was waiting for Mistress to get online. when She did, i was naked.   earlier in the day She had told me what position to be in.  i was not in proper position and Mistress ordered me to do it.   i got on the floor, kneeling, head down and legs spread apart.   She had me turn around so She could view completely.  She had me get on the bed, put the bra on and put 5 clothes pins on my balls and write 'faggot' and ' i beg for cock' with markers above my puny worthless dick.   She then had me beg 5 times to serve men and then slap my puny worthless dick 5 times.  i had to keep repeating this until She said stop. i had to do this because She said She had other things to do and She enjoyed listening to my pain and begging.    i was begging and pleading to serve men and cock and to be a pain slut for men.  after many many repetitions, She finally said stop and told me to get in my cage and he me stroking and keep begging to serve men.  She ordered me to rip the pins off my balls and nipples one by one.  She ordered me to slap myself again.   She ordered me out of my cage  and crawl to the bowl of piss that i had put out earlier and She watched me drink it like a dog.   She permitted me to stop and pour the rest down the toilet.  i expressed my gratitude to Her for allowing me to do that and that i adored Her.  She then sent me back to the  bed.   i put pins on my nipples and slapped my puny worthless dick many many times while begging and pleading to serve men.   She had me sucking on the cock and slapping the cheeks of my face.  She had me stand and hit my balls and puny dick with a wooden spoon.

After lots of pain She ordered me to clean up and sleep naked.

a poem

roses are red, violets are blue
i beg to suck his cock and i know You secretly want to too

worthless

this pic shows how worthless i am

a pic

Mistress wants this.. gates of hell

i am...

i am a faggot.  i beg Mistress for cock and cum and for Her to order me to serve a man.

thursday night

Mistress ordered me to be on the toilet when She signed on.   She finally signed on and ordered me to pee.  i was only wearing the bra and Her collar.   i spread my legs and peed for Her.   She had me wash my  hands and then told me to get in the cage and put the pins on.   She had me stroke and reminded me that i am a faggot and a whore.  She then ordered me to the bed and use to use the markers.  first She had me draw a yellow sun, then She had me write MISTRESS with a black marker.   i then had to write faggot with a red marker.  i also had to write Max is a faggot with a purple marker and finally with an orange marker write i love men's cum.  i am a faggot and whore.   Mistress has me begging to serve men.

after that She had me attach clothes pins to my balls and nipples, two pins on each nipple.  She had me smack the pins with a wooden spoon, 10 smacks on my puny worthless dick and five on each nipple.  i begged to be a pain slut to men. Mistress had me pleading for men most of the night.   i was close to cumming many times but Mistress never permitted that.   after much pain She sent me to bed.

wednesday night

i was kneeling by the side of the bed wearing Her collar, bra and panties when She appeared.   many things happened, the only constant is that She had me begging to serve men and begging for cock and cum.  i  had clothes pins on.   lots of stroking.  She had me put on weights and hula again. She had me fuck my pussy with the large butt plug while She watched.   i had to write faggot using marker on me and also that i am a pussy for men.   She had me lay down in the cage with pins on my balls.   She ordered me to use the wooden spoon  to hit each  ass cheeks five times and then hit my balls, worthless puny dick and each nipple five times.  i had to do this many times.. over and over.  i begged to be a man's pain slut.   She had me stroke 50 times very fast, i was very close to cumming but She never would have permitted that.  there was lots of pain.  while i was begging for a man to serve She gagged me with the panties and ordered me to continue to beg with the panties in my mouth.  all She could hear was my muffled begging.  She had me pinch and squeeze my nipples for a count of ten..  She watched me  clean up in the bathroom and sit on the toilet like a girl.  She had me put in the butt plug aned tie my puny worthless dick into chastity for the night.  She had me begging to be a man's pain slut and then She sent me to bed

tuesday night

i was naked in bed waiting for Mistress to get online.  She ordered me on cam and told me to put on Her collar.  She then had me stroke until hard.   i stroked for Her and then put clothes pins on my nipples and balls.  more stroking and then She had me stand and pulls off the pins one by one.She then had me attach the parachute to my balls and add weights to it stretching my balls.  She then sent me an instructional video of a hula dance and ordered me to do that for Her amusement.   after a little bit i begged her to allow me to take it off as my balls were in pain.   She permitted it and then had me stroke more and slap my puny worthless cock many times.  i begged Her to order me to serve men.  She said no.   She then sent me to bed.

monday night/tuesday morning

i was on cam for Mistress last night, wearing bra, panties and Her collar.  She had me stroke and then put 16 clothes pins on, two one each nipple and the rest of my balls.   She had me stroke and beg cock and cum.  i am a slut and a whore.   She had me write in marker on my chest ' i beg to lick men's balls'   i had to hit the pins with the wooden spoon.  She had me stand and smack my ass many times with the wooden spoon until it was red.   She had me spread my cunt for Her.  She then had me pull of  the pins one at a time.   i was back on the bed  and She told me to stroke and then slap my puny worthless dick with my hand.  i was begging for cock and cum.   She watched me clean up and then pee like a girl.  She sent me to bed.  i woke up in the middle of the night and signed on and Mistress was online and She ordered me  on cam again, stroking and slapping my worthless puny dick over and over again..  i kept begging for cock and cum.  She ordered me to tie up my puny worthless dick as if in chastity around my hips so i couldn't stroke anymore and that is how i had to sleep.  i was tired and was able to do so.

last night

Mistress had me on cam last night.  i am a sissy faggot so i was wearing a bra and panties.   She had me stroke my puny worthless dick and then put clothes pins on my nipples and balls.   i stood to show Her my  cunt and stretched it open for Her.  She then watched as i had to pull each pin off..   She had me use the wooden spoon on my ass until it was red.   She then sent me to the cage where i had to put red clothes pins on my nipples and two black clothes pins on my balls and stroke for Her.   She then sent me back to bed where i had to slap my balls and puny worthless dick with a wooden spoon.   She had me slap my thighs with my hand.  She had me suck on the cock and push it deep into my mouth.   She then told me to go to bed wearing the bra, panties and collar.

picture

i know that this is something that Mistress would like to do to me!

another one

roses are red, violets are blue
i am devoted to Mistress, which is a good thing too

roses....

roses are red, violets are blue
i am a faggot and beg for cock too

another poem

working on a poem about being on cam

when i am on cam

i act like a ham

i use give myself marks

when orders She barks

i am blue

when She is not able to be on too.

i am naked on cam

and She isn't... damn

She had me begging for cum

but never permits me to cum

lingerie

Mistress enjoys seeing me in sexy lingerie, so i am often ordered to wear a bra and panties when serving Her.  wearing sexy lingerie makes me feel like a sissy faggot.  wearing it shows me i am not a man

chain

Mistress requires me to wear a chain  when She orders it.  She did so this morning so i put the chain around my puny worthless dick and balls and locked it on with a padlock.  i am required to keep it on until She allows me to remove it.  i make sure the chain is locked tightly so that i can feel it during the day.

craving

i crave Master Max's cock and cum.   i have only seen his cock once while giving him a lingerie show.   it was a long time ago now.  

this morning

i saw Mistress this morning.  She had me strip in front of Her slowly and then kneel as She inspected my body.   She used a ruler and slapped my ass and had me stroke for Her .  She had me wear a see black through bra the entire time i was there.   I spent a lot of time worshiping Her feet while She was wearing high heel shoes.  She twisted my nipples and fucked my mouth with Her dildo/cock.   She slapped my puny worthless cock with the ruler.  She told me i was a faggot slut and whore.  She had me suck on Her tits and She said for me to suck them as i wold a cock.  She twisted my nipples as i did that.  She then watched me dress and we left.

breasts

Mistress has beautiful full breasts.  i know i am just a faggot but i do appreciate how wonderful they are.   Just the right size.   All men lust after them.

chopsticks

last night i tied my balls up and then Mistress had me use two sets of chopsticks with rubber bands on my balls.   i was also required to spank my ass 20 times with a spoon.   She had me stroking to the edge and begging to serve men as i am a faggot slut and whore.  i spent more time in the cage for her.  She had me kneel in the bathroom and then show Her my cunt.  She had me wear a bra stuff with socks because She wanted big breasts on me last night.  i begged for Her orders to serve Master Max.   She didn't allow me to cum so i was on the edge most of the evening.   She had me get the butt plug and fuck my ass with it and then leave it in for a while.   i put clothes pins on my balls, nipples and thighs and then She had me pull them off one at a time.

the weekend

i have spent the weekend being on cam for Mistress.  clothespins, stroking, spanking with a spoon, spending time in a cage... it all runs together.  i own a dildo/cock and Mistress had me suck it while She pleasured Herself.   She likes to see the cock go in and out of my mouth.   i know i am a sissy faggot, She has made that clear to me.   She had me begging for a man.  She had me sleep with my legs tied together and wearing a bra, panties and Her collar.

this morning She ordered me on cam again.  i had to write Mistress L's property and sissy faggot on me.  She had me slap my puny worthless cock lots and lots. She ordered me to stroke.  i had to wear clothes pins on my nipples the entire time.  She told me my place was serving men.  i begged for Her to order it.  She put me in the cage for a while and then watched me shower and get dressed.

faggot

i am a sissy faggot slut and whore.   i once met a Dom in a motel room, stripped naked and tried on different lingerie for him as he stroked.  i was nervous doing so.   after trying on a number of different bras panties and stockings, i got dressed and left.

whore and slut

i am a faggot whore and slut.   i would serve all men if ordered by Mistress.  i would suck cock.  i would swallow cum.   men could fuck my face.    i would follow all orders if directed to do so by Mistress

the morning

i am naked this morning, Mistress is allowing me to stroke but She is not  able to be on the computer.  She says i am a slut and whore and tease this morning

She then ordered me on cam.   i was naked.  She had me stroke and the slap my puny worthless dick.  She then had me stand and slap my puny worthless dick 10 times hard.  She ordered me to show her my cunt where She said men would fuck me.  i was then on the bed begging Her to allow me to serve men.   She had me slap again and again and twist my nipples. She told me i was  a sissy faggot and only good for men's cum.   She even checked to see if max was online and told me She was thinking about having him view me.      She is training me to be a faggot cock sucker.    She then watched me dress and sent me to work.   my worthless puny dick is sore this morning.

once upon

once upon a time i was wandering sub but then Mistress decided to give me guidance and took me as Her sub.   She now is training me to be a cock sucking faggot.   She has trained me to put Her wishes first.   She has trained me to be a slut and whore.

two poems

roses are red, violets are blue
i am a slut because You want me to

roses are red, violets are blue
i am a sissy faggot because You want me to

long term goal... 125

Mistress is determined to get Her weight down to 125.   This has been a goal of Her's for some time now.  now She is having me send Her pictures of leather clad Dommes wearing leather so that She can know what She will look like.   She is in control of Her diet now but i am more concerned that She reach Her first goal by June 6.

cravings

here are the 5 things that i crave


1.  Mistress
2.  cock
3.  cum
4.  cum down throat
5.  cum on face

rules

here are the rules i follow:

1.  sit to pee
2.  no underwear at work (when possiible)
3.  wear chain at work when ordered
4.  daily morning email
5.  no stroking and no touching of puny worthless dick
6.  sex with permission
7  cam rules:      a. you should be on it for me any opportunity you have because
I enjoy seeing my property.        b. you are not allowed to be on cam for anyone else but me.
8,  ask permission before leaving work and going to bed.

thighs

Mistress has asked me to describe my thighs and why She likes them.   my thighs are thighs and  She likes them because they connect my leg to my body.  my thighs have the shape that look slutty when wearing thigh highs

wants...

what i want isn't important.   the only thing that is important is what Mistress wants for me and giving Her the control.  She knows what is best for me.

craving

Mistress sent me to the bathroom today to stroke until hard and then fuck my mouth with two fingers as i continued to stroke.  i had to keep my mouth open in a perfect 'O' all the while wishing it was a cock fucking my mouth and not my fingers.

today

today Mistress ordered me to serve a Dom and return to her after i was done serving him.  i refused Her order.

another poem

roses are red, violets are blue
i want to swallow cum and have it on my face too.

a dirty poem

roses are red, violets are blue
hippos love mud and pigs do too.

friday night

Mistress had me stroking last night and getting close to cumming.  i begged to serve men and She said i was a faggot cock sucking slut and whore.   She said i am a sissy faggot.  i continued to beg and She was amused.

i am..

i am a faggot cock sucking whore and slut.   i am only useful for serving  men.  i have sucked a cock and swallowed the cum and then when done i reported it all to Mistress.  i should be serving all men.  all men should be permitted to use and abuse me.

today....

today i was put in charge of giving Mistress motivation to diet.    so we set a goal and if she doesn't meet that goal she has a humiliating task to complete.   i am hoping She will spend a lot of time thinking about doing that task if She fails to lose the weight we agreed on.

..........

there are times when Mistress doesn't know what to say or gets quiet and she types  .......

when She does that, i know i have said something that has stumped her or She doesn't know what to say.

cam session

i served Mistress on cam last night.   when She signed on i was sitting in a chair, legs spread and wearing a bra.   She had me tie my feet to the legs of the chair and ordered me to stroke and then She had me slap my worthless dick.  She then had me untie and had me stand, stroke some more and show Her my cunt,   She kept repeating that i was a faggot cocksucking slut and had me repeat it over and over.  i am a cock sucking faggot and only good for men's cum.    She had me get on the bed, attach clothes pins to my nipples and balls and continue to stroke.    She kept saying i was a faggot cock sucker and i begged Her to allow me to serve men.  i begged her to allow it and for Her to punish me if i didn't serve to Her satisfaction.  She had me take the pins off and continue to stroke and  slap my worthless dick first with my hand and then a wooden spoon.  She also had me hit my balls with the spoon. She ordered me to stroke fast and i continued to beg  to serve max.   i am a faggot cock sucking slut and cum dump.  She never did allow me to cum and had me sleep with my ankles tied and in the bra and panties.

a poem

roses are red, violets are blue
i am a faggot, just like the others You are talking to.

panties

i am wearing panties at Mistress's orders.  if i were with a Dom right now, i would be wearing panties only and undress the Dom and worship his cock.   i would be on my knees between his legs and he would be fucking my mouth hard and then when he was ready to cum i would beg for it on my face. After returning home i would then describe every detail to You and hopefully You would be pleased.

what i am...

Mistress ordered me to stroke while She was gone.   i did  as ordered.   i am a faggot with a worthless pathetic dick.  my only purpose is to serve as a cum dump for men.

suffering

Mistress knows my job as Her sub is to suffer for Her pleasure.  She has the right to use my body anyway She chooses.   today i had to send messages to three doms.  i have no idea what She is thinking sometimes.  She would not be happy if i talked to a Dom, i know that

craving

Mistress continues to reinforce that i should be craving cock so i will start watching men's pants to see how big the bulge is.   i am thinking i would choke on most of them

if.....

if i were owned 24/7, i know that whenever possible i would be naked or wearing whatever Mistress instructed me to wear.  i know i would be wearing either panties or nothing all the time.  i imagine She would have me wearing lingerie more often than not.

if....

if we were 24/7 i know i would be locked in chastity and only permitted to cum when You decided.  i know i would never be allowed to have sex again and would only be permitted to cum using my hand.    i also know that You would have no hesitation telling Your friends about my chastity device and ordering me to show it at any time

cum

Mistress told me today that i should have my face covered with cum, i was required to look for pictures showing Her that.   She re-enforced today that i am only good for swallowing and wearing men's cum.

last night

last night i served Mistress on cam.   i was wearing a bra, panties and Her collar.  She had me stroke and slap my puny worthless dick.  She constantly reminded me that i am faggot cock sucking whore and that is all i am good for.  She had me put clothes pins on my balls and then hit them with a wooden spoon.  i had to do that while She masturbated so that She could listen to my pain.     She was then satisfied and dismissed me and said good night

writing daily

1.  i will not miss a day of writing in my blog
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needs

my need is to be a faggot because that is my place to service Mistress and service men at Her direction.   i am only good for sucking cocks

doubt

i often wonder why Mistress doubts Her relationship with Her Master.   He wants her but she always believes that it's over between them.   i don't understand that.

the truth

Mistress, You need to be honest with Your own feelings or You will start to confused fact and fiction.    If you can't be honest with Yourself, how can You be honest with anyone else?

owned

i enjoy being owned by Mistress because she is a friend and cares about my submission.   i enjoy pleasing Her.

another poem

roses are red, violets are blue,
i am a slut and so are You!

a poem

roses are red, violets are blue
You like cock much more than i do.

what i think about

i think most about what it would be like to be in an D/s relationship where i would be owned completely.  that is very different from reality because of the situation i am in.   She tried to involved another Dom in my training today.  it was not something i was looking forward but Mistress has the control to do that to me.

Property

Mistress has ordered me to write daily about the following:

Write how you see yourself as property of another person..or how I see you .  Why I want to control you

i am owned by Mistress, so She does control me.  it's limited because of my situation.  i understand that.  i would hope that Mistress wants to control me because i am Her property.  it isn't a 24/7 situation so no matter what happens, it is not what would be considered total control.

Tuesday night

last night was a big blur.  at first Mistress had me write TINA on my chest with a marker and She said this session was to please Mistress Tina.   it started with stroking but then She said it was not about Tina and then it was about her again.   i was wearing a bra and put an ice cube in each bra cup.  i then put a clothes pin on each nipple.   Mistress also had me put clothes pins on my balls.   i had to stroke and then hit my balls and puny worthless dick over and over again with the spoon.   She had me suck on the cock and slap my face.   i stroked till i was very close and begged to cum but She said no and laughed.   at some point i begged follow all of Mistress Tina's orders.   She had me put an ice cube in my ass and stroke more.  She ordered me to follow all of Mistress Tina's orders and also Edwards.   Mistress also watched me lick the toilet bowl and pee like a girl.  then more stroking and pain and She ordered me to sleep in the bra and collar. i am sure there was a lot more but all a blur

monday night session

i served Mistress on cam last night.   She had me wear a black bra, collar and chain with lock around my puny worthless dick and balls.  She had talked to Mistress Tina about my being on cam earlier that day.   Mistress had me stroke until hard.  She then had me use a red marker and write TINA on me and also a heart.  She had me draw a heart on my puny worthless dick.   i then had to beg Mistress Tina for a clothes pin and when Mistress thought i had begged properly She had me put on clothes pins, one at a time after proper begging to Mistress Tina.  first on the nipples and then on my balls.  i am guessing i had about 15 clothes pins on my balls.  i had to beg for each one.   Mistress then had me use the wooden spoon and hit my nipples hard and then hit my puny worthless dick.   She then had me hit the clothes pins with the spoon and that was the most painful.  She made it clear to me that She owned me and that Mistress Tina and all others were my superior.  She had me suck on the cock and had me push it deep into my mouth and then put it next to my puny worthless dick and stroke  both at the same time.  She also had me move the cock in and  out of my mouth very quickly.  i told Mistress i would do anything to please Her.  She had me pull off the pins one at a time and i had to use the wooden spoon on my balls, nipples and puny worthless dick again.   At the end of the session She had me write a big 'L' on me with the red marker.

monthly requirement

Mistress has decided that i am to give her $40 each month.   She said she is going to use this money to buy me things, either toys or lingerie.  She did show me a ball crushing device the other day and today She talked about special panties tht She wished i owned.   so i have no idea what She will purchase.   She did talk about me suffering for Her when i am alone on cam, so it may be something that induces pain.  i really have no idea

cam session

Last night i was on cam for Mistress, i was wearing pantyhose, bra and Her collar.  At Her direction, i also had a bowl of my piss,  i turned on the cam and She inspected me front and back and bent over to show Her my ass.  She permitted me to stroke my puny worthless dick, first through the pantyhose and then with the tip exposed.  She reminded me again that my dick is worthless and that the only thing i am good for is servicing a Man.  She ordered me to put a clothes pin on each nipple under the bra.  She had me dip the dildo/cock in the bowl of piss and suck it while i stroked.  this was repeated many times.  She had me fuck my mouth with the cock and made me take it deep until i gagged.  i continued to stroke and then She had me hit my puny worthless dick many times with the wooden spoon, harder each time.  that took away the urge to cum.   She repeated that i was not a Man and that i had the smallest dick She had seen.  She then had me attach the parachute and 2 lbs of weights to my balls and swing them back and forth, she called it a hula dance  She then had me crawl to the bowl of piss and drink from it using my tongue to lap it up.  She then had me stroke more until i was close and then said stop and had me sleep in the pantyhose, bra and collar.

punishment

yesterday Mistress was angry at me for something, i don't remember what and i had to to into the restroom and flick my puny worthless dick 20 times with  a rubber band after stoking and getting hard for Her.  i also had to drink a little of my piss for Her.  i did this in the afternoon at 4:30 for Her

Looking for a few good Men

This is davids Mistress writing.

david has written about his puny worthless dick a few times, but I'm not sure if the readers know quite how small it is...it is super small. It gives me no pleasure whatsoever, except the fact I can deny him release and I can give his little weenie pain. Otherwise it is worthless to bring me pleasure. I have to find other Real Men to fuck me because david is worthless sexually. hes a worthless little dick fag that is only good as a cum hole for Men.

The problem is ...Men who I trust to use him. And Men who are not interested in me, because I have a Dom who uses me and need no others. I am only looking for a Man who would like to stick His cock in my fags mouth...his pussy is negotiable but his mouth is always open for the Right Cock

he swallows cum ..experienced that way and he also is very good with his tongue ..licking balls. he can take mild pain and also will drink Your piss if I allow it..

 If any Dom reading this, wants to use him, You may get in touch with me here by leaving a message. I am in control of him and this blog and will then give you my personal email for interview purposes.

Thank you,
Mistress L

Mistress has asked me to write on Ds/ sex and vanilla sex.  this came about because She asked what type of orgasm i enjoyed the most.  i told Her that i keep my D/s life and vanilla life totally separate and never compare the two.   vanilla sex to me is when both parties are just having 'normal' sex, no one is in control and things are just happening.    D/s sex is when the Dominant is in complete control and the submissive must follow all instructions without regard to personal pleasure.  in a D/s mode i don't have any needs.   i think that is the main difference, between us.   When Mistress is in sub mode she does have needs, She knows when She needs pain, She enjoys watersports and lets the Dominant know.  

Queening

Mistress has me read a blog about queening.  it is about a Domme and her sub.   they are a married couple in Australia.  i think for me to lick someone's ass, that person would have to be very clean and i would need to know with complete certainty that the person was disease free.   the blog talked about the sub being placed in a queening stool.   i know that is something i would enjoy, bring pleasure to Mistress that way.  i could see myself laying on my back, legs spread with Mistress sitting on top directing me on how to proceed.   my puny worthless dick would be there for Mistress to do whatever She wished to it.  i would hope that She would allow me to lick Her for at least an hour at a time, bringing Her to multiple orgasms.

punishment

when i was serving Mistress, She gave me permission to come on the count of 7, She started counting and by the time She reached 4 i was cumming from the excitement.  as a result of cumming too soon i had to attach 27 clothes pins to me, 25 on my balls and one on each nipple and leave them on for 15 minutes.  there was a lot of pain and at the end Mistress allowed me to take them off without pulling them.   i was very grateful to Her.

last night

i was on cam again last night for Mistress.   She had me stroke and suck on the cock.  i also put clothes pins on my balls and nipples.   i had to pull each one off and count as i did so.  the pins left marks on my balls.   She is training me to suck cock, that is all i am good for.   She had me fuck my mouth hard and fast and also take the cock as deep as i could.   i was ordered to slap my face as i was sucking on the cock.   i used a wooden spoon on my puny worthless dick and also on my nipples.  She kept saying over and over what a faggot cocksucker i was and he me repeat it time and time again.   She reinforced that i am Her cock sucking faggot bitch..a whore bitch only good for mens cum and pleasure.   She had me kiss my hand like i would kiss a man.   i know She wants to watch that.   i kept begging to cum and She had ordered me to cum on the cock and suck it off.  She started to count to 7 (which is when i am allowed to cum) but She only got to 4 before i did.  i came over the cock and then sucked my cum off of it and cleaned it with my tongue.   thank You Mistress

session with Mistress

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on cam

i was able to get on cam this afternoon for Mistress, i was naked and  wearing Her collar.   She had me stroke and then start sucking on the cock that She had purchased for me.   it is huge compared to my worthless puny dick.   She ordered me to lick the sides and continue to suck while stroking and pinching my nipples.   She had me slap my puny worthless dick many times.   i was ordered to put a total of 16 clothes pins on my balls.  i continued to stroke and begged for permission to cum.  She had me use the wooden spoon on my puny worthless dick and then on my nipples.   i continued to suck on the cock and then rubbed it against my dick while stroking.   She just laughed when i begged to cum.  i was very close.    She then told me to stop and She said she would be back later.

Session

Since faggot is busy with non bdsm activities, I am posting. He will post his thoughts later, as required.

 I first went and bought the dildo for his reward, and binders and 2 wooden spoons for him to use on cam next week when he is alone.

We met and I had him strip. I kept my clothes on this time, though I had a sweater and unbuttoned the top buttons. I wasn't wearing a bra.

I had him lie down on  his back.

I bent over him and stuffed each tit in his mouth..and telling him he must suck and bite it very hard to please me. He wasn't sucking very hard and he was not biting..so I told him again...and then he started sucking very very hard, but never did bite.

But I got the dildo out and started fucking his mouth with it, telling him he was a faggot. And how much he loves cock. I was trying to teach him how to suck cock better but I allowed him to stroke his puny worthless dick and I think he was focusing on that too much, so I shoved it deep..telling him is this too far, and finally I did it far enough where he gagged and turned his head to side.

I mainly wanted to see him suck the cock.  He did have a grande idea of making a cock gag with it, while hes on cam, which will allow him to do other things with his hands and also keep him silent..or at least mumbled.

I did order him to be slutty before I got there and when he was sucking my breast and I was leaning over him, he grabbed my pussy very hard. Which pleased me.

The only thing that did not please me, is when I went to stroke his puny dick, he pushed my hand away and turned to his side, like I was trying to kill him or something. I didn't give him any pain today, I figure he will have enough pain next week on cam.