faggot

i am a sissy faggot slut and whore.   i once met a Dom in a motel room, stripped naked and tried on different lingerie for him as he stroked.  i was nervous doing so.   after trying on a number of different bras panties and stockings, i got dressed and left.

whore and slut

i am a faggot whore and slut.   i would serve all men if ordered by Mistress.  i would suck cock.  i would swallow cum.   men could fuck my face.    i would follow all orders if directed to do so by Mistress

the morning

i am naked this morning, Mistress is allowing me to stroke but She is not  able to be on the computer.  She says i am a slut and whore and tease this morning

She then ordered me on cam.   i was naked.  She had me stroke and the slap my puny worthless dick.  She then had me stand and slap my puny worthless dick 10 times hard.  She ordered me to show her my cunt where She said men would fuck me.  i was then on the bed begging Her to allow me to serve men.   She had me slap again and again and twist my nipples. She told me i was  a sissy faggot and only good for men's cum.   She even checked to see if max was online and told me She was thinking about having him view me.      She is training me to be a faggot cock sucker.    She then watched me dress and sent me to work.   my worthless puny dick is sore this morning.

once upon

once upon a time i was wandering sub but then Mistress decided to give me guidance and took me as Her sub.   She now is training me to be a cock sucking faggot.   She has trained me to put Her wishes first.   She has trained me to be a slut and whore.

two poems

roses are red, violets are blue
i am a slut because You want me to

roses are red, violets are blue
i am a sissy faggot because You want me to

long term goal... 125

Mistress is determined to get Her weight down to 125.   This has been a goal of Her's for some time now.  now She is having me send Her pictures of leather clad Dommes wearing leather so that She can know what She will look like.   She is in control of Her diet now but i am more concerned that She reach Her first goal by June 6.

cravings

here are the 5 things that i crave


1.  Mistress
2.  cock
3.  cum
4.  cum down throat
5.  cum on face

rules

here are the rules i follow:

1.  sit to pee
2.  no underwear at work (when possiible)
3.  wear chain at work when ordered
4.  daily morning email
5.  no stroking and no touching of puny worthless dick
6.  sex with permission
7  cam rules:      a. you should be on it for me any opportunity you have because
I enjoy seeing my property.        b. you are not allowed to be on cam for anyone else but me.
8,  ask permission before leaving work and going to bed.

thighs

Mistress has asked me to describe my thighs and why She likes them.   my thighs are thighs and  She likes them because they connect my leg to my body.  my thighs have the shape that look slutty when wearing thigh highs

wants...

what i want isn't important.   the only thing that is important is what Mistress wants for me and giving Her the control.  She knows what is best for me.

craving

Mistress sent me to the bathroom today to stroke until hard and then fuck my mouth with two fingers as i continued to stroke.  i had to keep my mouth open in a perfect 'O' all the while wishing it was a cock fucking my mouth and not my fingers.

today

today Mistress ordered me to serve a Dom and return to her after i was done serving him.  i refused Her order.

another poem

roses are red, violets are blue
i want to swallow cum and have it on my face too.

a dirty poem

roses are red, violets are blue
hippos love mud and pigs do too.

friday night

Mistress had me stroking last night and getting close to cumming.  i begged to serve men and She said i was a faggot cock sucking slut and whore.   She said i am a sissy faggot.  i continued to beg and She was amused.

i am..

i am a faggot cock sucking whore and slut.   i am only useful for serving  men.  i have sucked a cock and swallowed the cum and then when done i reported it all to Mistress.  i should be serving all men.  all men should be permitted to use and abuse me.

today....

today i was put in charge of giving Mistress motivation to diet.    so we set a goal and if she doesn't meet that goal she has a humiliating task to complete.   i am hoping She will spend a lot of time thinking about doing that task if She fails to lose the weight we agreed on.

..........

there are times when Mistress doesn't know what to say or gets quiet and she types  .......

when She does that, i know i have said something that has stumped her or She doesn't know what to say.

cam session

i served Mistress on cam last night.   when She signed on i was sitting in a chair, legs spread and wearing a bra.   She had me tie my feet to the legs of the chair and ordered me to stroke and then She had me slap my worthless dick.  She then had me untie and had me stand, stroke some more and show Her my cunt,   She kept repeating that i was a faggot cocksucking slut and had me repeat it over and over.  i am a cock sucking faggot and only good for men's cum.    She had me get on the bed, attach clothes pins to my nipples and balls and continue to stroke.    She kept saying i was a faggot cock sucker and i begged Her to allow me to serve men.  i begged her to allow it and for Her to punish me if i didn't serve to Her satisfaction.  She had me take the pins off and continue to stroke and  slap my worthless dick first with my hand and then a wooden spoon.  She also had me hit my balls with the spoon. She ordered me to stroke fast and i continued to beg  to serve max.   i am a faggot cock sucking slut and cum dump.  She never did allow me to cum and had me sleep with my ankles tied and in the bra and panties.

a poem

roses are red, violets are blue
i am a faggot, just like the others You are talking to.

panties

i am wearing panties at Mistress's orders.  if i were with a Dom right now, i would be wearing panties only and undress the Dom and worship his cock.   i would be on my knees between his legs and he would be fucking my mouth hard and then when he was ready to cum i would beg for it on my face. After returning home i would then describe every detail to You and hopefully You would be pleased.

what i am...

Mistress ordered me to stroke while She was gone.   i did  as ordered.   i am a faggot with a worthless pathetic dick.  my only purpose is to serve as a cum dump for men.

suffering

Mistress knows my job as Her sub is to suffer for Her pleasure.  She has the right to use my body anyway She chooses.   today i had to send messages to three doms.  i have no idea what She is thinking sometimes.  She would not be happy if i talked to a Dom, i know that

craving

Mistress continues to reinforce that i should be craving cock so i will start watching men's pants to see how big the bulge is.   i am thinking i would choke on most of them

if.....

if i were owned 24/7, i know that whenever possible i would be naked or wearing whatever Mistress instructed me to wear.  i know i would be wearing either panties or nothing all the time.  i imagine She would have me wearing lingerie more often than not.

if....

if we were 24/7 i know i would be locked in chastity and only permitted to cum when You decided.  i know i would never be allowed to have sex again and would only be permitted to cum using my hand.    i also know that You would have no hesitation telling Your friends about my chastity device and ordering me to show it at any time

cum

Mistress told me today that i should have my face covered with cum, i was required to look for pictures showing Her that.   She re-enforced today that i am only good for swallowing and wearing men's cum.

last night

last night i served Mistress on cam.   i was wearing a bra, panties and Her collar.  She had me stroke and slap my puny worthless dick.  She constantly reminded me that i am faggot cock sucking whore and that is all i am good for.  She had me put clothes pins on my balls and then hit them with a wooden spoon.  i had to do that while She masturbated so that She could listen to my pain.     She was then satisfied and dismissed me and said good night

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