October 21, 2014

i have a puny worthless dick and i am unable to satisfy woman.  i cannot even satisfy my wife sexually.   i am very grateful to Mistress.

in the past i have..

In the past when serving Mistress i acted slutty towards Her by getting naked and rubbing my puny worthless dick on Her leg and then sucking Her toes.

cam 3

i was on cam again last night for Mistress.  Again i was naked except for Her collar and the chastity device.   She told me to unlock and stroke.  She had me put clothes pins on my nipples and continue to stroke.   She ordered me to stand and smack my ass with the spoon and smack my puny worthless dick.   She had me sit on the toilet like a girl and also get in my cage for a bit.   She then ordered me back to bed and told me that put two pins on each nipple.  That hurt.   I was permitted to take them off one at a time as long as i continued to stroke.  after a few false starts i was able to do so.  She then had me put a butt plug in my ass and stroke more.   all the while, She told me i was a faggot and She had me begging for cock.  She permitted me to take out the plug and go wash up.  She then ordered me to bed

cam 1st night

Mistress ordered me to be naked and on cam.   i am always locked in a chastity device   She had me write 'fag' on my body and put on the bra.   She then permitted me to unlock and stroke for Her.  She had me smack my puny worthless dick many times and smack my ass with a spoon until it was read.   She had me put clothes pins on my nipples and then yank them off.   She had me suck my fingers like i would suck a cock.  She then ordered me to lock up and go to bed.

cam 2nd night

Mistress had me turn on the cam, i was locked and naked.   after a while She ordered me unlocked and had me stroke.   She had me slap my puny dick and told me i was a faggot.   She had me suck on the base of a flashlight telling me it was a think cock.   i then stood and She told me to spank my ass with a wooden spoon, many many times.   i also had to use the spoon on my puny worthless dick.   She then had me put on the parachute with weights and dance for Her.   She then had me get back in bed and put on the bra and stroke more and slap my worthless dick.  She then ordered me to put the chastity device back on and go to bed

chastity updates

i am required to round minutes so that rounding increases the time to the next hour

i have been locked since 9am and permitted to unlock at 5:30.   9 hours for a total of 5.60 plus yesterdays $6.40 for a total owed $12.00.

3/7  locked on friday from 11am to 6pm, total for the day $4.80, grand total owed $16.80

3/10  locked on monday at 9am and unlocked at 6pm, total for the day is $5.60, grand total is now $22.40

3/11  locked on tuesday, 8am  unlocked at 6pm  total for the day $6.00, grand total is now $28.40

3/12   locked on wednesday, 9am  unlocked at 6pm  total for the day $5.60, grand total is now $34.00

3/13  locked on thursday, 8am  unlocked at 6pm  total for the day $6.00, grand total is now $40.00

3/14   locked with two different devices (plastic from 9am to 1pm and then the metal device til 6pm),  day $4.50  total $44.50

3/17   locked on monday, 9am  unlocked at 6pm  total for the day $5.60, grand total is now $50.10

3/18 locked from 8am to 1pm, total for day $4.00, grand total now  $54.10

3/19 locked from 9am - 2pm  total for the day $4.00, grand total now $58.10

3/25  locked from 9am to 2pm   total for the day $4.00, grand total now $62.10

3/27  locked from 9am to 6pm   total for the day $5.60, grand total now $67.70

3/28  locked from 9am to 3pm   total for the day $4.40, grand total now $72.10

3/31  locked from 7am to 6pm   total for the day $6.40, grand total now $78.50

4/1  locked from 9am to 6pm   total for the day $5.60, grand total now $84.10

4/2  locked from 9am to 2pm   total for the day $4.00, grand total now $88.10

4/3  locked from 9am to 6pm   total for the day $5.60, grand total now $93.70

new device and new rule

Mistress had me purchase a stainless steel chastity device.  it arrived and Mistress ordered me to wear it today.  i put it on at 7:30 this morning and She has said I can unlock at 5:45 pm this afternoon.  She likes the device because it is metal and it hides my puny worthless dick.  She could see my dick when i wore the plastic device.  i am now required to pay Mistress for each hour i am locked up.   i am to pay her $0.40 per hour when i wear the plastic device and $0.80 per hour for the first 5 hours when wearing the metal device, after 5 hours the amount i am required to pay Her drops to $0.40 per hour.  i really can't tell the different between plastic and metal other than this one is heavier

sex

Mistress has locked me up today, i put the device on at 9am and not permitted to take if off until i leave work.  i also had to put clothes pins on my nipples while driving to work and did so from 8:30 to 8:45.  Mistress owns me and i am very grateful for Her guidance

short lock up

Mistress ordered me locked up today while She was out volunteering.   i put the device on and then put the keys in an envelope.    i held the envelope in the palm of my hands and then kissed the envelope.  Mistress requires this each time i am locked up with the chastity device.  i put the device on around 8am this morning.  at the top of each hour, as required by Mistress, i went into the bathroom and sat on the toilet.  i then twisted my nipples and looked down at my worthless locked up dick and thought about how i am not able to please women.   my dick is to small to satisfy a woman and Mistress has made it clear that She would prefer i never have sex again. i know when do have sex, i am not able to please the person i am with.   my dick is too small to do so.   at 2pm Mistress ordered me to unlock.  i kissed the envelope and unlocked.  i then stroked until hard thinking about how i was not a man at all.  being locked up puts me in a very submissive state knowing i have giving control of my dick to Her.   i enjoy giving Mistress that control, makes me feel good.

 a short lock up today, a total of six hours.

Chastity time

Mistress just released me from the device, total time was 66 hours

my dick

Mistress has required me to post a description of my dick here:   my dick is small and thin, perhaps about 2 and a half inches long.  i am not able to please a woman with my dick.  i am in chastity now as i am not permitted to touch it or orgasm until She allows it.

tonight

onight i walked my dog around the block.  i was wearing a bra stuffed with socks, tshirt, panties, jeans socks and shoes and a winter coat.   Mistress also has my puny worthless dick locked in a chastity device.  i felt like a slut and was glad no one else was out.

a list

Mistress had me compile a list of all my permanent rules.   rules that i must always obey.   as i put together the list, i realized how submissive i really am to Her and the fact that She really does own me.

last night

Mistress unlocked me to torture my worthless dick some and then locked me up again and put me to bed

this morning

i put the chastity device on this morning, it took about 5 minutes to get everything positioned right and then put the lock on.   i am at work now in chastity wearing a shirt, pants, socks and shoes   Mistress did not permit underwear today.  i am Mistress L's property.

locked

tomorrow i am back in chastity with Mistress holding the key.  it makes me happy to give Her that type of control over me.  i think the device i have is too big, i wished i had purchased the CB6000s instead.

wed night

still locked, Mistress has told me that i will not be unlocked until saturday.  wearing the chastity device 24/7 is a constant reminder that i am submissive.  that i am a slave and property of another person.   Mistress holds the keys and decides when i may take it off.   the device is a constant reminder that i no longer have control of anything.  i must sit all the time to pee.   i feel the pain if i start to get hard.  i no longer have any control over my orgasms.  Mistress requires me to wear the device as spouse is out of town.  spouse is coming home on sunday.  i am very thankful that Mistress holds the key and has decided to take this step with me.  i feel very submissive with the device on.  Mistress has also told me that i may no longer initiate sex with spouse but i may only respond to her advances.

tuesday night

Mistress had me put the chastity device on as soon as i got home from work.  i was permitted to wear sweatpants only downstairs and upstairs She wanted me to wear a bra and skirt but there wasn't a skirt that fit so i just wore the bra upstairs (and collar always).   i thank Her for those orders.  She ordered me to eat my dinner from a plate on the floor without my hands.   it was humiliating to do so.   She watched as i did it..  i cleaned up and went upstairs.   when upstairs i am only permitted to crawl.   She had my use a wooden spoon and leather belt on my ass until it was very red.  At some point She permitted me to take the cage off and had me stroke until close.  She didn't permit release and had me put the device back on.   She had me put pins on my nipples and balls while wearing the chastity device.  She ordered me to crawl to the bathroom and sit on the toilet however i wasn't able to pee.   She told me to lick the toilet seat and then had me spend time in the cage (tub).  i had to crawl back to the bed.

She also gave me new rules.  i am not permitted to initiate sex with my spouse. She doesn't believe i should ever have sex with a female again.  She told me if my spouse does initiate sex as soon as i am able afterwards i am to use the wooden spoon and spank my puny worthless dick 30 times.   i thanked Her for the new rules   She is right, i am not worthy of sex with a female.   i wish She was able to keep me locked all the time and only She could decide if and when i was permitted to cum.   She ordered me to sleep in chastity unless there was too much pain.  i had to stay on cam while Mistress watched and listened to me to help Her doze off.  i did have to take it off in the middle of the night and wrote her and told her what i did.   She had me put it back on in the morning and watched me get dressed.  it has been on all day.   Almost 9 hours, the longest period so far.  

Mistress wrote this

Mistress wrote this about Sunday night:

Last night was my last night to use my faggot until I am 125. I had ordered him back in November because of many reasons, to switch with me and he has been in control of me for 2 months, which I have enjoyed immensely. But he was alone and had some private time in his home for a while and he either seduced me or I talked him into being on cam for me and subbing for me from friday to sunday evening until midnight when I would then reverse and I would be his property.

Last night being the last night, after a few days of ordering pain--he was sore. I ordered only for him to have a dish. I wanted to have him drink out of it, I do enjoy watching him be on all fours lapping up water. For a split second I thought of having him cum in the dish, but I enjoy him too much being denied. Though in the past, I have enjoyed watching him lose control and shooting all this cum all over the place, having him lick it up.

So the time came and I ordered him to have his bra, panties and collar on. Right from the start I sensed an *attitude* on his part. Which in a sense, I enjoyed. It was amusing. Friday and Saturday he was so submissive, so Im not sure where the attitude was coming from...I am still not sure. He was stroking his big clit through the satin black panties and I ordered him to stroke his clit and he said it was sore. And red. He showed me and it was. I said ok, your balls and dick are out but I can give nipples and ass pain. I think at some point he asked to put clothespins on nipples. I started doing laundry and moving around bedroom folding clothes piled up on my bed and watched him on cam but couldn't hear him.

I had him beg for a person I dislike and when he did, I said for saying that you will be punished. He got the attitude back and said rather harshly he was taking notes. Which excited my submissive self.

I had him turn around and beat his ass cheeks counting with a wooden spoon many times. It excites me to hear and see his pain and hear his voice change, to a rather compliant edgy in pain voice and makes me feel aroused to have that power over him.

I also repeatedly had his put clothespins on nipples and rip them off and his yelling in pain voice when right to my clit.

I started humiliating him calling him Princess. It made me laugh to hear him say I am a Princess. And I have him sing to me. Which I supposed might be humiliating but for me its a treat to hear him sing. I am not sure why except his voice soothes me. I have him tell me stories too.

He had clothespins on his balls and would have him pull them off there too.

I had him write on himself in green marker..slut whore i adore Mistress. I had him beg for a Dom he used to suck who I now serve, thinking at some point I can order him to suck this Doms cock. I made him write hes this Doms whore. ..then bitched at him that he made the letters biggerfor that..then the writing about Me. I enjoyed giving him a hard time.

I used verbal humiliation causing him a faggot..a whore..slut..my whore girl. That he was a girl with a big clit..humongous nipples..and a hairy chest. I made im turn around inspecting his nasty dirty cunt hole. Hes got sexy thighs I ordered him to slap. I had him get his face on cam. And just using hand motions I had him suck his fingers how he would suck a cock and then repeatedly have him smack his face. I am smiling and snickering a bit thinking how humiliated he looked.

As the evening progressed I felt a little sad and wanted to extend my time as Mistress and tried earlier but knew we had a deal of my weight being 125 as incentive and goal to be able to use him again. Plus I enjoy his control of me. But still, felt a bit sad. And I stopped earlier before midnight. Maybe at 11 or so said I was going to bed. But I decompressed. Did my nighttime routine and finally was in bed reading on my tablet when He at...midnight came on as my Master. And I felt at peace.

He ordered me to write this for his blog. So here it is. My feelings for the most part was arousal from his pain and seeing him naked and amusement at his suffering and his attitude..and he seemed a bit tired, sore...I think. At the end, a bit sad..but then happy when he came on after midnight in role reversal.

locked

i had a chastity device and put it on last night and surprised Mistress with the key.  She inspected the device to make sure it was secure.   She had me put pins on my nipples and hump the bed as She watched.  She ordered me to keep the device on another hour and then put it back on in the morning.  i put it back on around 4am for 90 minutes or so and then Mistress ordered me to put it back on this morning for another hour.   

last night

last night i was on cam for Mistress.   as instructed i was on all fours wearing a bra and panties when i turned the cam on.  it took a while to connect as my computer was misbehaving.  She then had me kneel and stroke.  most of the night was a blur.  i did a lot of stroking and also pain from Her such as slapping my puny worthless dick, clothes pins on my balls and nipples.  slapping my ass and puny worthless dick with a wooden spoon.  She told me i was only good for sucking men's cocks and She had me begging for that.   She also had me lick the toilet seat and spend time in the cage.  i was close to cumming many times but She never gave permission.  

task yesterday

Mistress, 

i went into the bathroom and stroked for You thinking about kneeling in front of a Dom and sucking his cock.   You pushing my head and causing me to gag and the Dom eventually cumming in my mouth.   i was close to cumming but stopped.

Your slut and whore

trip to sex store

Mistress,

i went to the store.  i was the only one there except for the female salesperson who was at least 100 years younger than me.   She asked if she could help me and i said yes, looking for a vibrator.  She said we have a whole room full and walked to that section of the store.   i said i am looking for the one that cost 13.99.  She found it and handed me a purple one, i said i need pink and she give me that one instead,  i told her that i had to buy exactly what my Mistress ordered.  She asked if there was anything else and i said no.  As she rang it up i told her that my Mistress required me to get this one so that i could practice sucking.  She said something like.. it is good to stay out of trouble and she handed me my change and i left the store.

i put batteries in it when i got home and it works.

Your slut and whore.