Personal Shopper

today i was Mistress's personal shopper.  She had a gift certificate to a department store and ordered me to find her a bra.  i found what She called  a 'cute" bra and She ordered it.  i was happy to do that for Her.

CB6000

Mistress ordered me to purchase a chastity device, a CB6000.  i found a place that sold it for a good price and ordered it.  it arrived about 10 days later.   i have tried to fit the tube over my puny worthless dick and it is way too tight, i don't fit into it.  i have done some reading and will try again when i have some privacy using lube and twisting it in.

monday morning

Mistress had set up a meeting for coffee with someone from silverdaddies for wednesday morning.   She showed me the exchange of emails and i got nervous because the person was a horrible speller.   he didn't know how to spell divorce and used mail instead of male in a sentence.   i got very nervous because of this and had lots of bad feelings and begged Mistress to cancel.  She did, i am very grateful to Her.

per Mistress's instructions, i attached 4 clothes pins to my balls for the drive to work.  i will try to give myself pain daily for Mistress.

stuff

i was punished last night for responding to an email on silverdaddies without getting permission.   this was in addition to my task prior to having sex.    for sex i put the parachute on and attached all the weights which is two pounds.   i let that hang for 10 minutes.   the punishment was taking two sips of my pee.   Mistress responded to the guy from silverdaddies and She is working on setting up a time for me to suck his cock.  i know that would make Mistress happy to be able to watch me service a man.   i hope She will set up a time to meet this person for coffee first prior to me serving him.  

Mistress has told me that She is a sadist so today i was on cam and begged for pain.  She had me stroke my worthless puny dick and the slap it.   most of the time i was stroking and very close to cumming.  She had me pinch my nipples also.   towards the end of the session She told me to pull up my pants and i begged for more pain.  She then had me slap my puny worthless dick again and again and again.   harder and harder.   i begged when i am home alone on cam and locked up for more pain to earn release.   

i am now required to give myself pain anytime i am alone and record it here.   i was alone for a bit this afternoon and went upstairs and got naked and put 10 clothes pins on my balls for Her and then pulled each one off.

excites

my assignment is to write about what i think excites Mistress most about me.  first, i think that excites and enjoys are two different things so i think the thing that excites Mistress the most is Her control over me..

Mistress post

What excites me most about my slave is his stubborn bullheadness.  If he was a pussy and didn't stand up to me, I would be totally bored to tears.

5 things that excite Mistress.

1.   the thought of me sucking a cock
2.   wax dripping on my puny worthless dick
3.  me sucking Her breasts
4.  me sucking Her toes.
5.   me stroking and cumming so She can see me squirt

first meetings

our first meetings.

the first time we actually met, Mistress was owned and Her Owner ordered Her to find a sub for both of them.   the Dom set up the meeting with specific instructions.   She was required to wear a skirt and no panties and i had to look under the table at Her and then describe to him what i saw.  i was also not to wear underwear and was required to show Her my puny worthless dick.   we met at a bookstore that had a coffee shop in it.   we sat down and talked and then She said for me to look. so i dropped a napkin and went under the table as She spread her legs.   we then went to my car where She refused to get in so i sat int he car and pulled down my pants to show Her.   She also showed me a tens unit and She used it on me.

the next time we met it was at a mall.   She was with Her Owner and i met them at the food court.  i had instructions to wear a butt plug and was doing so.   She and i got food for him and we sat down and they talked.   We then went for a walk and at some point he ordered Her to check and make sure i had the plug in and She did so.

the third time we met was at a fast food restaurant.  i got Her coffee and we talked.   She knew i had a wig so we went back to my car and i tried it on for Her.  She enjoyed seeing it on me.

training

Mistress has ordered me to write about 3 things:  I

1. Why you think you need faggot training

2. How that might happen

3. Why you beg for it so much

 as a sub, i feel i should serve a Dominant regardless of the sex of that person.  prior to being owned by Mistress i served a male dom.   i would tell her about it and i knew She was disappointed that i didn't enjoy it more.  i feel i need to training to increase my desire for cock. howeer i know what i think isn't important and Mistress will determine the type of training i require.  so the following isn't really impoartent.   one of the things Mistress would like to see is me sucking cock, She has talked about it often.  this type of training is part of my humiliation, keeping me in my place.  as far as training, i have no idea.   i know that begging for cock pleases Mistress so i try to do it often.   i think training is part of association, just like when i associate pain with pleasure, could be cock with pleasure.  i really don't know

p.M -. (prior to Mistress)

before Mistress.. i served a Male Dom.   i served him in a motel room when he would call me.  i would knock on the door and he would pull me inside and press up against me so that my back was against the wall.  he would feel my puny worthless dick through my pants and kiss me hard.  i didn't like the kisses and Mistress said i was wrong, that it didn't matter what i liked.  She said i should have relished the attention.  he would then have me strip and i would then undress him.  i would then suck his cock until he unloaded in my mouth and would swallow it all.  he would then watch me jack off as i lay on the bed.   after i cleaned myself up, i would thank him and get dressed and leave.  i only wish he had been more Dominant but Mistress said that my only job should have been pleasing him .   She is right

pepsi with a twist

Mistress knows i normally drink a can of pesi during lunch.   today She required that i  drink 1/4 of the can and then take it to the bathroom and fill the can back up with my piss.   i was then required to drink the entire  contents during lunch.  piss makes pepsi taste bad... yuck.      thank You Mistress

today

i met with Mistress-we met at our usual place.  i hugged Her and then She had me strip down to my panties and She put a bra on me.   She used Her hands and explored my body, playing with my puny worthless cock.   i then got Her undressed and She had me crawl to Her purse and get her vibe and cock/vibrator.  She ordered me to kneel and stroke while She used the vibrato  She fucked my mouth with the cock and told me i was a faggot cock sucker which i am.   i sucked Her toes and worshiped Her feet.   She then used the cock-vibrator on Herself while i stroked some more.  She had two orgasms and then had me lay on my back and She fucked my mouth with the cock   She is training me to be a good cock sucker and to desire cock.   She stroked me until i almost came and the She said times up and get dressed.

task for sex

Mistress assigns a task each week prior to me having sex.   this week i had to put clothes pins on my balls and 4 on my puny worthless dick and one on each nipple.  i had to leave them on for 11 minutes and then drink a quarter cup of my pee.   after completing this task i was permitted to have sex and i was allowed to cum when i was on the bottom.

last night on cam

last night i was able to be on cam for Mistress.   i was laying down and She had me stroke my worthless puny dick while reinforcing that i am a cock sucking faggot.   She had me begging for a cock to suck.  i know that is all i am good for.   She said if She was there while i was servicing a real Man, she would force my head down so that the cock would gag me.   as i got close, She had me flick my puny worthless dick with my finger many times.   She then ordered me to stop and put my puny worthless dick back in my pants.

earning sex

Mistress allows me to have sex with my wife  i know sex is a privilege and i am very grateful to Her that She permits this.  Prior to having sex however, i must complete the task Mistress has given me for the week.   She also decides if i am on the top or bottom when i cum.  She decides on either Thursday or Friday if i am allowed to have sex over the weekend and what the task is.  This week She had me put the parachute on my balls with a total of 2 lbs weight and also clothes pins on my nipples.   i then made the weights swing by doing the hula for a total of 10 minutes.  i did the task in the morning and my balls were sore the rest of the day.

last night was mostly a blur to me.  i was naked wearing Her collar and waiting for Mistress.  i had the kitchen utensils near me that She told me to get.   She had me stroke and put clothespins on my nipples and balls.   She had me stand and show Her my hole.   i slapped the puny worthless dick with the spatula.   She had me sit on the toilet legs spread and continue to stroke.  She then had me get back on the bed.  i used the tongs to knock off the pins off my nipples.   She kept me on the edge of orgasm the entire time.  i begged Her to be allowed to cum.   i offered to purchase a chastity device if She let me cum every night.   i think She was tempted.   She had me suck the end of the spatula like a cock, licking it and sucking it. She told me to lick the sides of the handle like i would a cock.   i begged to suck a cock for Her.   She then had me used the basting brush to move the pins around on my balls.  i was still begging to be permitted to cum.   She told me to put my hands behind my head that said i wasn't cumming tonight.  She then had me tie my hands  and ankles and i slept naked and tied.  She left me frustrated and hard.