wed night

still locked, Mistress has told me that i will not be unlocked until saturday.  wearing the chastity device 24/7 is a constant reminder that i am submissive.  that i am a slave and property of another person.   Mistress holds the keys and decides when i may take it off.   the device is a constant reminder that i no longer have control of anything.  i must sit all the time to pee.   i feel the pain if i start to get hard.  i no longer have any control over my orgasms.  Mistress requires me to wear the device as spouse is out of town.  spouse is coming home on sunday.  i am very thankful that Mistress holds the key and has decided to take this step with me.  i feel very submissive with the device on.  Mistress has also told me that i may no longer initiate sex with spouse but i may only respond to her advances.

tuesday night

Mistress had me put the chastity device on as soon as i got home from work.  i was permitted to wear sweatpants only downstairs and upstairs She wanted me to wear a bra and skirt but there wasn't a skirt that fit so i just wore the bra upstairs (and collar always).   i thank Her for those orders.  She ordered me to eat my dinner from a plate on the floor without my hands.   it was humiliating to do so.   She watched as i did it..  i cleaned up and went upstairs.   when upstairs i am only permitted to crawl.   She had my use a wooden spoon and leather belt on my ass until it was very red.  At some point She permitted me to take the cage off and had me stroke until close.  She didn't permit release and had me put the device back on.   She had me put pins on my nipples and balls while wearing the chastity device.  She ordered me to crawl to the bathroom and sit on the toilet however i wasn't able to pee.   She told me to lick the toilet seat and then had me spend time in the cage (tub).  i had to crawl back to the bed.

She also gave me new rules.  i am not permitted to initiate sex with my spouse. She doesn't believe i should ever have sex with a female again.  She told me if my spouse does initiate sex as soon as i am able afterwards i am to use the wooden spoon and spank my puny worthless dick 30 times.   i thanked Her for the new rules   She is right, i am not worthy of sex with a female.   i wish She was able to keep me locked all the time and only She could decide if and when i was permitted to cum.   She ordered me to sleep in chastity unless there was too much pain.  i had to stay on cam while Mistress watched and listened to me to help Her doze off.  i did have to take it off in the middle of the night and wrote her and told her what i did.   She had me put it back on in the morning and watched me get dressed.  it has been on all day.   Almost 9 hours, the longest period so far.  

Mistress wrote this

Mistress wrote this about Sunday night:

Last night was my last night to use my faggot until I am 125. I had ordered him back in November because of many reasons, to switch with me and he has been in control of me for 2 months, which I have enjoyed immensely. But he was alone and had some private time in his home for a while and he either seduced me or I talked him into being on cam for me and subbing for me from friday to sunday evening until midnight when I would then reverse and I would be his property.

Last night being the last night, after a few days of ordering pain--he was sore. I ordered only for him to have a dish. I wanted to have him drink out of it, I do enjoy watching him be on all fours lapping up water. For a split second I thought of having him cum in the dish, but I enjoy him too much being denied. Though in the past, I have enjoyed watching him lose control and shooting all this cum all over the place, having him lick it up.

So the time came and I ordered him to have his bra, panties and collar on. Right from the start I sensed an *attitude* on his part. Which in a sense, I enjoyed. It was amusing. Friday and Saturday he was so submissive, so Im not sure where the attitude was coming from...I am still not sure. He was stroking his big clit through the satin black panties and I ordered him to stroke his clit and he said it was sore. And red. He showed me and it was. I said ok, your balls and dick are out but I can give nipples and ass pain. I think at some point he asked to put clothespins on nipples. I started doing laundry and moving around bedroom folding clothes piled up on my bed and watched him on cam but couldn't hear him.

I had him beg for a person I dislike and when he did, I said for saying that you will be punished. He got the attitude back and said rather harshly he was taking notes. Which excited my submissive self.

I had him turn around and beat his ass cheeks counting with a wooden spoon many times. It excites me to hear and see his pain and hear his voice change, to a rather compliant edgy in pain voice and makes me feel aroused to have that power over him.

I also repeatedly had his put clothespins on nipples and rip them off and his yelling in pain voice when right to my clit.

I started humiliating him calling him Princess. It made me laugh to hear him say I am a Princess. And I have him sing to me. Which I supposed might be humiliating but for me its a treat to hear him sing. I am not sure why except his voice soothes me. I have him tell me stories too.

He had clothespins on his balls and would have him pull them off there too.

I had him write on himself in green marker..slut whore i adore Mistress. I had him beg for a Dom he used to suck who I now serve, thinking at some point I can order him to suck this Doms cock. I made him write hes this Doms whore. ..then bitched at him that he made the letters biggerfor that..then the writing about Me. I enjoyed giving him a hard time.

I used verbal humiliation causing him a faggot..a whore..slut..my whore girl. That he was a girl with a big clit..humongous nipples..and a hairy chest. I made im turn around inspecting his nasty dirty cunt hole. Hes got sexy thighs I ordered him to slap. I had him get his face on cam. And just using hand motions I had him suck his fingers how he would suck a cock and then repeatedly have him smack his face. I am smiling and snickering a bit thinking how humiliated he looked.

As the evening progressed I felt a little sad and wanted to extend my time as Mistress and tried earlier but knew we had a deal of my weight being 125 as incentive and goal to be able to use him again. Plus I enjoy his control of me. But still, felt a bit sad. And I stopped earlier before midnight. Maybe at 11 or so said I was going to bed. But I decompressed. Did my nighttime routine and finally was in bed reading on my tablet when He at...midnight came on as my Master. And I felt at peace.

He ordered me to write this for his blog. So here it is. My feelings for the most part was arousal from his pain and seeing him naked and amusement at his suffering and his attitude..and he seemed a bit tired, sore...I think. At the end, a bit sad..but then happy when he came on after midnight in role reversal.

locked

i had a chastity device and put it on last night and surprised Mistress with the key.  She inspected the device to make sure it was secure.   She had me put pins on my nipples and hump the bed as She watched.  She ordered me to keep the device on another hour and then put it back on in the morning.  i put it back on around 4am for 90 minutes or so and then Mistress ordered me to put it back on this morning for another hour.   

last night

last night i was on cam for Mistress.   as instructed i was on all fours wearing a bra and panties when i turned the cam on.  it took a while to connect as my computer was misbehaving.  She then had me kneel and stroke.  most of the night was a blur.  i did a lot of stroking and also pain from Her such as slapping my puny worthless dick, clothes pins on my balls and nipples.  slapping my ass and puny worthless dick with a wooden spoon.  She told me i was only good for sucking men's cocks and She had me begging for that.   She also had me lick the toilet seat and spend time in the cage.  i was close to cumming many times but She never gave permission.  

task yesterday

Mistress, 

i went into the bathroom and stroked for You thinking about kneeling in front of a Dom and sucking his cock.   You pushing my head and causing me to gag and the Dom eventually cumming in my mouth.   i was close to cumming but stopped.

Your slut and whore

trip to sex store

Mistress,

i went to the store.  i was the only one there except for the female salesperson who was at least 100 years younger than me.   She asked if she could help me and i said yes, looking for a vibrator.  She said we have a whole room full and walked to that section of the store.   i said i am looking for the one that cost 13.99.  She found it and handed me a purple one, i said i need pink and she give me that one instead,  i told her that i had to buy exactly what my Mistress ordered.  She asked if there was anything else and i said no.  As she rang it up i told her that my Mistress required me to get this one so that i could practice sucking.  She said something like.. it is good to stay out of trouble and she handed me my change and i left the store.

i put batteries in it when i got home and it works.

Your slut and whore.