needs

my need is to be a faggot because that is my place to service Mistress and service men at Her direction.   i am only good for sucking cocks

doubt

i often wonder why Mistress doubts Her relationship with Her Master.   He wants her but she always believes that it's over between them.   i don't understand that.

the truth

Mistress, You need to be honest with Your own feelings or You will start to confused fact and fiction.    If you can't be honest with Yourself, how can You be honest with anyone else?

owned

i enjoy being owned by Mistress because she is a friend and cares about my submission.   i enjoy pleasing Her.

another poem

roses are red, violets are blue,
i am a slut and so are You!

a poem

roses are red, violets are blue
You like cock much more than i do.

what i think about

i think most about what it would be like to be in an D/s relationship where i would be owned completely.  that is very different from reality because of the situation i am in.   She tried to involved another Dom in my training today.  it was not something i was looking forward but Mistress has the control to do that to me.

Property

Mistress has ordered me to write daily about the following:

Write how you see yourself as property of another person..or how I see you .  Why I want to control you

i am owned by Mistress, so She does control me.  it's limited because of my situation.  i understand that.  i would hope that Mistress wants to control me because i am Her property.  it isn't a 24/7 situation so no matter what happens, it is not what would be considered total control.