Personal Shopper

today i was Mistress's personal shopper.  She had a gift certificate to a department store and ordered me to find her a bra.  i found what She called  a 'cute" bra and She ordered it.  i was happy to do that for Her.

CB6000

Mistress ordered me to purchase a chastity device, a CB6000.  i found a place that sold it for a good price and ordered it.  it arrived about 10 days later.   i have tried to fit the tube over my puny worthless dick and it is way too tight, i don't fit into it.  i have done some reading and will try again when i have some privacy using lube and twisting it in.

monday morning

Mistress had set up a meeting for coffee with someone from silverdaddies for wednesday morning.   She showed me the exchange of emails and i got nervous because the person was a horrible speller.   he didn't know how to spell divorce and used mail instead of male in a sentence.   i got very nervous because of this and had lots of bad feelings and begged Mistress to cancel.  She did, i am very grateful to Her.

per Mistress's instructions, i attached 4 clothes pins to my balls for the drive to work.  i will try to give myself pain daily for Mistress.

stuff

i was punished last night for responding to an email on silverdaddies without getting permission.   this was in addition to my task prior to having sex.    for sex i put the parachute on and attached all the weights which is two pounds.   i let that hang for 10 minutes.   the punishment was taking two sips of my pee.   Mistress responded to the guy from silverdaddies and She is working on setting up a time for me to suck his cock.  i know that would make Mistress happy to be able to watch me service a man.   i hope She will set up a time to meet this person for coffee first prior to me serving him.  

Mistress has told me that She is a sadist so today i was on cam and begged for pain.  She had me stroke my worthless puny dick and the slap it.   most of the time i was stroking and very close to cumming.  She had me pinch my nipples also.   towards the end of the session She told me to pull up my pants and i begged for more pain.  She then had me slap my puny worthless dick again and again and again.   harder and harder.   i begged when i am home alone on cam and locked up for more pain to earn release.   

i am now required to give myself pain anytime i am alone and record it here.   i was alone for a bit this afternoon and went upstairs and got naked and put 10 clothes pins on my balls for Her and then pulled each one off.

excites

my assignment is to write about what i think excites Mistress most about me.  first, i think that excites and enjoys are two different things so i think the thing that excites Mistress the most is Her control over me..

Mistress post

What excites me most about my slave is his stubborn bullheadness.  If he was a pussy and didn't stand up to me, I would be totally bored to tears.

5 things that excite Mistress.

1.   the thought of me sucking a cock
2.   wax dripping on my puny worthless dick
3.  me sucking Her breasts
4.  me sucking Her toes.
5.   me stroking and cumming so She can see me squirt

first meetings

our first meetings.

the first time we actually met, Mistress was owned and Her Owner ordered Her to find a sub for both of them.   the Dom set up the meeting with specific instructions.   She was required to wear a skirt and no panties and i had to look under the table at Her and then describe to him what i saw.  i was also not to wear underwear and was required to show Her my puny worthless dick.   we met at a bookstore that had a coffee shop in it.   we sat down and talked and then She said for me to look. so i dropped a napkin and went under the table as She spread her legs.   we then went to my car where She refused to get in so i sat int he car and pulled down my pants to show Her.   She also showed me a tens unit and She used it on me.

the next time we met it was at a mall.   She was with Her Owner and i met them at the food court.  i had instructions to wear a butt plug and was doing so.   She and i got food for him and we sat down and they talked.   We then went for a walk and at some point he ordered Her to check and make sure i had the plug in and She did so.

the third time we met was at a fast food restaurant.  i got Her coffee and we talked.   She knew i had a wig so we went back to my car and i tried it on for Her.  She enjoyed seeing it on me.

training

Mistress has ordered me to write about 3 things:  I

1. Why you think you need faggot training

2. How that might happen

3. Why you beg for it so much

 as a sub, i feel i should serve a Dominant regardless of the sex of that person.  prior to being owned by Mistress i served a male dom.   i would tell her about it and i knew She was disappointed that i didn't enjoy it more.  i feel i need to training to increase my desire for cock. howeer i know what i think isn't important and Mistress will determine the type of training i require.  so the following isn't really impoartent.   one of the things Mistress would like to see is me sucking cock, She has talked about it often.  this type of training is part of my humiliation, keeping me in my place.  as far as training, i have no idea.   i know that begging for cock pleases Mistress so i try to do it often.   i think training is part of association, just like when i associate pain with pleasure, could be cock with pleasure.  i really don't know