another poem

roses are red, violets are blue,
i am a slut and so are You!

a poem

roses are red, violets are blue
You like cock much more than i do.

what i think about

i think most about what it would be like to be in an D/s relationship where i would be owned completely.  that is very different from reality because of the situation i am in.   She tried to involved another Dom in my training today.  it was not something i was looking forward but Mistress has the control to do that to me.

Property

Mistress has ordered me to write daily about the following:

Write how you see yourself as property of another person..or how I see you .  Why I want to control you

i am owned by Mistress, so She does control me.  it's limited because of my situation.  i understand that.  i would hope that Mistress wants to control me because i am Her property.  it isn't a 24/7 situation so no matter what happens, it is not what would be considered total control.

Tuesday night

last night was a big blur.  at first Mistress had me write TINA on my chest with a marker and She said this session was to please Mistress Tina.   it started with stroking but then She said it was not about Tina and then it was about her again.   i was wearing a bra and put an ice cube in each bra cup.  i then put a clothes pin on each nipple.   Mistress also had me put clothes pins on my balls.   i had to stroke and then hit my balls and puny worthless dick over and over again with the spoon.   She had me suck on the cock and slap my face.   i stroked till i was very close and begged to cum but She said no and laughed.   at some point i begged follow all of Mistress Tina's orders.   She had me put an ice cube in my ass and stroke more.  She ordered me to follow all of Mistress Tina's orders and also Edwards.   Mistress also watched me lick the toilet bowl and pee like a girl.  then more stroking and pain and She ordered me to sleep in the bra and collar. i am sure there was a lot more but all a blur

monday night session

i served Mistress on cam last night.   She had me wear a black bra, collar and chain with lock around my puny worthless dick and balls.  She had talked to Mistress Tina about my being on cam earlier that day.   Mistress had me stroke until hard.  She then had me use a red marker and write TINA on me and also a heart.  She had me draw a heart on my puny worthless dick.   i then had to beg Mistress Tina for a clothes pin and when Mistress thought i had begged properly She had me put on clothes pins, one at a time after proper begging to Mistress Tina.  first on the nipples and then on my balls.  i am guessing i had about 15 clothes pins on my balls.  i had to beg for each one.   Mistress then had me use the wooden spoon and hit my nipples hard and then hit my puny worthless dick.   She then had me hit the clothes pins with the spoon and that was the most painful.  She made it clear to me that She owned me and that Mistress Tina and all others were my superior.  She had me suck on the cock and had me push it deep into my mouth and then put it next to my puny worthless dick and stroke  both at the same time.  She also had me move the cock in and  out of my mouth very quickly.  i told Mistress i would do anything to please Her.  She had me pull off the pins one at a time and i had to use the wooden spoon on my balls, nipples and puny worthless dick again.   At the end of the session She had me write a big 'L' on me with the red marker.

monthly requirement

Mistress has decided that i am to give her $40 each month.   She said she is going to use this money to buy me things, either toys or lingerie.  She did show me a ball crushing device the other day and today She talked about special panties tht She wished i owned.   so i have no idea what She will purchase.   She did talk about me suffering for Her when i am alone on cam, so it may be something that induces pain.  i really have no idea