monday morning

Mistress had set up a meeting for coffee with someone from silverdaddies for wednesday morning.   She showed me the exchange of emails and i got nervous because the person was a horrible speller.   he didn't know how to spell divorce and used mail instead of male in a sentence.   i got very nervous because of this and had lots of bad feelings and begged Mistress to cancel.  She did, i am very grateful to Her.

per Mistress's instructions, i attached 4 clothes pins to my balls for the drive to work.  i will try to give myself pain daily for Mistress.

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i was punished last night for responding to an email on silverdaddies without getting permission.   this was in addition to my task prior to having sex.    for sex i put the parachute on and attached all the weights which is two pounds.   i let that hang for 10 minutes.   the punishment was taking two sips of my pee.   Mistress responded to the guy from silverdaddies and She is working on setting up a time for me to suck his cock.  i know that would make Mistress happy to be able to watch me service a man.   i hope She will set up a time to meet this person for coffee first prior to me serving him.  

Mistress has told me that She is a sadist so today i was on cam and begged for pain.  She had me stroke my worthless puny dick and the slap it.   most of the time i was stroking and very close to cumming.  She had me pinch my nipples also.   towards the end of the session She told me to pull up my pants and i begged for more pain.  She then had me slap my puny worthless dick again and again and again.   harder and harder.   i begged when i am home alone on cam and locked up for more pain to earn release.   

i am now required to give myself pain anytime i am alone and record it here.   i was alone for a bit this afternoon and went upstairs and got naked and put 10 clothes pins on my balls for Her and then pulled each one off.